# 13 – Ink


Liza watched Bruce disappear up the street and wondered again where he lived. She glanced down at the clock on the dashboard. It was ten twenty-four. Casey would be asleep by now, so she circled around until she found a parking spot. She grabbed her bag and headed into the square.

Adams Square was a big park that took up a city block. It was meticulously landscaped with various bushes, trees, and flowers. Cobblestone walkways dotted with benches cut through the vegetation. Statues and fountains were scattered throughout. The trees were strung with big round Christmas lights that gave the square a festive atmosphere at night. It reminded Liza of a wedding she’d been to as a child. It was at an apple orchard outside of the city. The trees were all lit up, and she had spent most of the reception wandering up and down the rows, mesmerized by the lights.

She sat down under a tree and pulled out a pencil and the parchment. Liza began to sketch Bruce sitting on the bench in the garden at night. He was leaning slightly forward, arms out, palms flat on the marble. His long legs were bent in front of him. He looked like he might be getting ready to stand up. She put him in shorts and a sleeveless t-shirt. Between the tattoos and the setting, at first glance he looked like someone you would cross the street to avoid. She spent a lot of time adding subtle details, more details than she usually included in her sketches. Each brick was a book cover. The ones closest to Bruce were books that had inspired his tattoos. If you didn’t look carefully, the words just appeared to be shading. A slim object was intertwined in the long fingers of his right hand. It could be a knife, until a second glance showed that it was a quill. Liza drew some bushes and flowers around the bench and then added ivy. The ivy grew every which way, snaking up the sides of the bench, around a tree, and across a few of the brick books. When she finished, the bench was almost completely ensconced in ivy.

Liza dug around in her bag for the black fine point pen she used to ink in her drawings. She carefully went over the sketch, spending extra time on Bruce’s face. She wanted to get his high cheekbones and dark, heavy-lidded eyes just right. As an afterthought, she sketched a full moon partially hidden from view behind a tree. Its light cast most of the left half of Bruce’s body in shadow. She slid the pen into her hair and held up the parchment to inspect her handiwork. She was happy with the way it had turned out. At first, Bruce looked somewhat menacing, but the details revealed themselves the longer you looked. The knife was a writing tool. The scuffed bricks were works of literature. The cocky sneer was a tentative smile.

Liza wished that she could give him the drawing now. Class wasn’t for a few days and she realized that in addition to not knowing where he lived, she also didn’t have his phone number. His office number was probably on the University’s website, but that seemed too stalker-like. She sighed and carefully tucked the drawing into her bag. It would have to wait. “Mysterious bastard,” she muttered under her breath.

# 12 – Talk to Me


Liza had been trying to ignore the disappearing sun for the past forty-five minutes.  This was one of those days that you wished you could live in forever.  She didn’t want it to end and she didn’t want it ruined by an encounter with Laura at home.  Bruce didn’t mentioned that he had anywhere to be.  She realized that she had no idea where he lived except that it was near Adams Square.  Did he live in a condo?  An apartment?  One of those big old historic houses?  Did he live alone?  Not knowing the answers to these questions agitated her.

“Do you want a cigarette?” asked Bruce.

Liza looked at him, a little taken aback.  Was she that transparent?  “It’s ok.  I can wait,” she said.  It was true.  She didn’t feel the urge to smoke.

“Are you sure?  It’s a nice night.  I’ll come out with you.  Do you have a few more minutes or…do you need to get home to the owner of the art project in your car?”

Casey’s art project.  She had given it to Liza back when she had still been able to attend school.  “Sure.  I mean, no.  Well…”  She thought of her niece stuck at home all day with Laura, sick and barely able to get around on her own.  She should get home.  Laura was likely to be having another party, or to have gone out and left her daughter to fend for herself.  Liza looked at Bruce.  Casey was Laura’s responsibility, not hers.  “Let’s go outside.  I have time.  The little girl who made the art project is my niece, not my daughter.”


Liza hesitated.  Don’t go into detail.  Keep it light.  “Laura is my sister.  Casey is her daughter.  She’s eight.  She made the project.”

They walked outside and hopped up on a short brick wall in front of Liza’s car.  She turned her face up and closing her eyes for a minute.  When she opened them again Bruce was looking at her.

“Where’d you go?  What were you thinking about?” asked Bruce softly.

“Eh, nothing.  I was just thinking about…”  Casey.  “Stuff.”

“You know, if you ever change your mind about that long story, I’d still be happy to listen.  I get the feeling that there is a problem or issue there.  I may not be able to help, but you can always talk to me.”

Liza’s eyes began to fill up.  Maybe Bruce couldn’t see them in the darkness.  She was angry at herself and turned her head as if she was looking up the street.  They were getting ready to overflow.  Dammit!  A long arm wrapped around her.  Bruce slid closer.  He put his other hand on the side of her head and gently laid it on his shoulder.  She felt calm almost immediately.  He rubbed her back.  She wrapped her arms around his waist.  “You too,” she whispered.

“Me too, what?”

“Your long story.  You can always talk to me too.” said Liza.  Several flickered across his face, but she couldn’t identify them in the fading light. He kissed her forehead and continued rubbing her back.  Liza felt happy and free, in a way that she hadn’t since she was a kid.  At some point, she fell asleep.  When she woke up the moon was shining and the street lights were twinkling around them.

# 11 – Parchment Paper


“An artist.”



“What kind?”

“I don’t know.  I never got that far.  I draw pencil sketches mostly.”  She hesitated.  “They’re kind of…dark.  Some people love them, some people find them disturbing.”  She watched him closely.

He was nodding, thoughtful.  “I don’t suppose you would show me some of your drawings?”

“Sure, right after you let me read your novel,” said Liza.

Bruce bunched his lips up in annoyance, but his eyes were smiling.  He shook his head and took a sip of coffee.  “Ok, so why didn’t you pursue it?  Why don’t you pursue it?  You said draw, present tense.”

“I was planning on pursuing it at different times.  Two of my five majors were art and another was graphic design.”

“What happened?” he asked.

Liza considered.  He seemed genuinely curious, not as if he were setting her up to tease or make fun of.

She shrugged.  “I wish I had majored in art the first time around.  I was eighteen with no responsibilities and nothing to lose but time and money.  I’ve lost those anyway, and have nothing to show for it.  Anyway, my family acted like I’d said I wanted to major in sword swallowing.  So I majored in law, hated it, and dropped out.  I went back a year later, majored in art, lost my job and my tuition reimbursement, and dropped out…and on and on.”  She paused, debating. “I finally decided to give it one last try a couple of years ago.  I was half way through.  Then…I had some personal problems.  Everything got to be too much.  I ended up dropping out again.  This is actually my first term back.  I’m majoring in business administration this time.  It’s not exciting, but I can tolerate it.  I’ve been doing office work of some sort for almost a decade.”

“Why not major in art this time if that’s what you like?” asked Bruce.

“I don’t have that luxury anymore.  I have bills to pay and…”  She thought about Casey and Laura, but didn’t want to go there.  “and, I don’t know, I’m not getting any younger.”

He didn’t say anything for a while, just looked at her, poking his tongue into his cheek, thinking.  “How about a turkey sandwich?”  He stood up.  “That cookie didn’t do it for me.  I’m still hungry.  Do you want to split a turkey sandwich?”  he asked, pointing up at the counter.

“Sure,” she said.  Liza wondered if she had made him uncomfortable.  She was mad at herself for telling him about her past and making herself seem like a flake with some sort of secret drama.  Both of which were true, but still.  She promised herself that she would keep it light from now on.  Liza watched him, thinking again how attractive he was and how much she liked him.

He came back and deposited the sandwich and a can of energy drink on the table.

She laughed, forgetting her thoughts.  “Wow, coffee and an energy drink!  Are we going for a jog after this?”

He smiled.  “I couldn’t resist.  It reminded me of that first night outside of Norton, on the bench.”  Bruce spread out a napkin in front of each of them.  He pulled out the turkey sandwich and gave her half.  He took a big bite of his half and set to work on the parchment wrapper.  He removed the plastic liner, carefully pulled off the tape, and flattened it out on the table.  Next, he folded it in half, pressing the fold hard.  Then he tore the paper down the middle along the fold.

“What are you doing?” Liza asked.

“Homework,” he said.  “Since you won’t show me any of your drawings, and I won’t let you read my novel, let’s make a deal.”  He handed her half of the parchment paper, and set the other half on the table next to him.  “Draw something for me.  Anything.  Something that you won’t mind showing me.  I’ll write something for you.  I’m not sure what yet.  We’ll exchange them after class next week.”


Liza smiled.  She liked it.  A million pictures raced through her mind.  She almost wished that she could start now.  Her smile faded.  “Are you going to be able to get past your writer’s block?”

“I’ll force myself, but I’m not promising that it will be good,” he said, glancing down at his paper as if it might jump up and slap him.

“Ok, deal,” Liza said, holding out her hand before he could change his mind.  Once again, his giant hand enveloped hers.  He tugged her hand toward himself and rose slightly out of his chair, leaning forward.  Liza half-rose from her own chair and met his lips over the table.


# 10 – Someday


“So, what made you decide to become a lit professor?” asked Liza.

“I don’t know.  I always loved books.  When I was a kid sometimes I would spend the whole day at the library of whatever base we were living on.  I liked being able to step inside someone else’s life for a while.  My mom worked full-time and my dad would be deployed for months.  Like I think I told you, I had friends, but, when you move around a lot, you never have the chance to develop close friendships.”  He shrugged.  “I don’t know what I’m getting at.”

Liza considered this.  It was a foreign lifestyle to her.  She thought it must be hard on a kid to move around that much, even if they regarded it as an adventure.  It probably got old never being able to lay down roots and perpetually being the new kid.  She pictured Bruce as a child, spending the day in a quiet corner of the library reading, poking the inside of his cheek with his tongue.  She smiled at the thought.  He smiled back and raised his eyebrows in question.  Liza shook her head.  “No, I think I get it, at least kind of.”  They sipped their coffees and took turns pulling pieces off a big peanut butter cookie.  “When did you know you wanted to teach?”

“After I spent a year writing a novel and another year not being able to get it published.”

“Ah.  Sorry,” she said, “Do you still have a copy of the novel?”

He hesitated, “Somewhere.”

“I don’t suppose you’d let me read it sometime?”  As soon as the words were out, she wanted to take them back.  She was afraid they sounded presumptuous or pushy.  They were really only acquaintances who had shared a few hours, a can of energy drink, and a kiss.  Here she was, asking to read his failed novel.  She forced herself to look at him.  He was staring at her.  She couldn’t read his expression.

“Someday I’ll let you read it,” he said.  Someday was good.  Someday meant that he too was hoping that there would be more days.

“Do you still write?” she asked.

“Nah, I still make up stories in my head, but nothing comes out when I sit down to write.”  Liza didn’t know what to say.  She thought that it would be insensitive to change the topic and mean to keep grilling him.  Clearly, this was a regret.  His hand was sitting on the table next to his mug.  It was the one with the bent finger.  She reached over and rested her hand on top of his.

# 9 – Fifty


“I don’t know.  Fifty?”

“Fifty?!”  He looked alarmed.


“Jesus, do I really look that old?”  Bruce turned to look at his reflection in the bookstore window.

“No.”  Liza studied him as he rubbed his hand across his hair and sucked in a phantom gut.  “Hmm…how about…thirty-two?”

“Oh, yeah right.  Now you’re just trying to make up for your first guess!”

Liza couldn’t tell if he was playing or if she had really hurt his feelings.  “No, that’s my guess.  Honestly, you look like you could be in your twenties, but considering that you’re a professor and were married, I guessed high.  You must at least be in your early thirties.”

His expression was inscrutable.  Finally he broke into a wide smile. “I’m thirty-eight, but thank you.”

“Sure, just don’t forget that you had to fish for that compliment,” Liza said, grinning and cocking an eyebrow at him.  “So tell me, how old do you think I am?”

“Hmm…seventh semester freshman, evening student, full-time job, drives a Focus, likes Halestorm, drinks energy drinks…” His eyes roamed her face for a minute.  “I’m going to say…twenty-seven.”

He was right.  Exactly.  Liza pursed her lips.  She was more competitive than a soccer mom on steroids and didn’t like losing; not even at this little guessing game.  “How did you know that?”

“I guessed.  How would I know?”  He looked amused.

“I don’t know.  Can’t professors look up student records?”

“Yes, we can, but you never told me your last name and apparently Liza is a nickname.”  She smiled.  He had tried to look her up.